What has happened to Kindergarten?

10708783_10152475639178860_6213760241580596127_oI love our new school. My 6-year-old tornado is doing great there, but I’m still increasingly concerned by the standards that these kids (all kids in any sort of public/charter educational system) have to get to. I love her teacher. She’s a sweetheart and sends home a newsletter every week with updates on what’s going on in the class, things they need, things that’ll be coming up. This week, the newsletter said that next week, the kids would begin spelling tests. In kindergarten???

Am I just out of it? Am I alone in thinking it’s entirely ludicrous that kindergarten has been reduced to this? There’s a list of sight words that the kids are tested on (to read) at the beginning, middle and end of the year. I tried to help out, and I typed our Sight Words so every week, my girl and I go through the list. I add a page every now and then. I thought this was a lot for a kid to have to learn. Where’s the fun here? Now she has to do spelling tests? WTF!

Just this week, we were going over her homework. Mostly, it’s greatly conceptual and I’ve no problem with it. Maybe write a couple of sentences. They’ve been working on math too so they’re doing simple equations such as 6+1=7. Nothing goes above 10. OK. But this week, the homework unit was that I was to write out a few equations such as 4 + = 10 and she was to figure out what x was. Say the hell what????? When did algebra become necessary in kindie and when the hell did abstract algebra factor in here?? How the heck is she supposed to conceptualize that x can stand for any number at all and that it all depends on the equation. For the most part, I just counted with her – if I’ve got 4, how many numbers do I need to get to 10, and then finger count along with her. IT’S KINDERGARTEN!!

I even talked to my 14-year-old niece who fondly remembers kindergarten and then said that things got serious in 1st grade.  I told my niece what my 6-year-old is doing and she was shocked. They never did that in her kindergarten class. Well, I guess the educational system has pushed that crap downwards and now the kindergartener gets to do what used to be for the older grades. It just feels like a bunch of this (especially the x equation, come on!!!) is well beyond her mental capabilities and she’s a smart kid.

Having had my rant, she’s still a happy camper in school. Although, she did ask me this morning if her 100 days of summer is coming up soon. This is because the 100th day of school celebration is this Friday but I think she thought that meant she was getting ready for summer break. Sorry, kid.  She asked me to put together a calendar for her to look at so that she can see when it’ll be summer time. I think that might have more to do with getting up at 7am than the work itself. She still bounces into the car each afternoon and runs into school every morning.So they must be doing something right. Maybe it’s just me that has the problem or maybe she just doesn’t know any different. My youngest, the 3-year-old will be starting VPK in August and it more than likely looks like I’ll be able to get him into the same school she was in. She loved that place so much. He’s started asking if he can go to school and she’s been telling him how much fun preschool was. And while I do think she is happy in her current school, the inference was that kindergarten isn’t as fun as preschool.

And that makes me sad.

Over-Parenting: Final Chapter

Begin here for the background story and here for Nelson Mandela’s prison. At the bottom, I’ve got some extra photos for viewing.

2086On my way from the airport to downtown Cape Town, the highway passed by a shanty town (a township). Not even 30 minutes in the country, I was stunned by the poverty I saw. Instantly, I thought of my kids and how incredibly good they have it. How immensely privileged they are and the thought that followed was how incredibly unaware (and subsequently ungrateful) they are. At that moment, I wished for my 6-year old daughter to see that sight. We’ve talked a lot for a while now about how fortunate we are to have a roof over our heads, a fridge with food in it, a pantry at our disposal. But that sight I saw brought everything to a new level. Feel free to click on the picture to get a closer look. Note the doctor sign.

Cape of Good Hope
Cape of Good Hope

I made it to my family and we strolled through downtown Cape Town via a gorgeous park and had a delicious lunch. Table mountain in view, the scene couldn’t have been more gorgeous. Pristine conditions, stunning scenery. Including travel, it had been three days since I saw my children and I wasn’t having a hard time coping. The five-star treatment I was receiving from my family made me feel like a queen. Every now and then, I’d think about the kids and be grateful they weren’t with me. Climbing all the way to the top of the Cape of Good Hope (Cape Point) would have been a nightmare because inevitably, I would have ended up carrying the wee one. I reveled in the freedom to take my time at the top and I was so overwhelmed by the beauty before me that I was moved to tears. At that time, I was grateful for the kids’ absence. In fact, throughout the whole week, I was grateful they weren’t there. I was grateful that my husband wasn’t there. Not because I don’t love them but because it had been so incredibly long since I got to be just me. Carefree, without thought of another person. The farthest I needed to plan ahead for was what to wear to dinner that night.

The oddest thing happened several times. It was hugely appreciated, and differs immensely from us mothers in the United States. Everyone there seemed to understand how hard it is to have children. The exchange usually went –
Brother: “Here’s my sister. She’s here on vacation without the kids for a week.”
Person: “Kids? Oh you needed the break! How old are they?”
Me: “Six and three.”
Person: “Oh you really needed the break.”

There was no magic cover over parenthood. Everyone understood how draining, wonderful, horrendous, precious, tiring and loving parenting is. No one was pretending to be successfully doing it all. No one was pretending it was easy. There were no veils of perfection at the front door. I was able to talk freely at shared frustrations, without judgement, because it was the norm to talk about such things. There wasn’t this silent but deadly competition going on to see who was the perfect mother.

Then there were the stories I was told. The sights I saw. Not just the shanty towns. I visited an orphanage called the Home of Hope where I met some extraordinary children. Children who have been abandoned, or neglected. Also, children with special needs because fetal alcohol syndrome is a huge problem in South Africa. One child I met was Ethan (not his real name). He is eleven years old and we cheered him valiantly as he counted to three. You see, when he was eight years old, his mother died. So his uncle carried Ethan out into the ocean and drowned him. He did succeed. Ethan was dead. But someone saw and revived him. However, he was dead for so long that he is severely brain-damaged. Those are the situations children are facing. Yet, they were the happiest little people I’d ever met. My heart bled for all the children in that home. How hard it must be for them, to be abandoned or neglected, but when I voiced my thoughts, I was told that these children, the very ones I felt sorry for, were the absolute privileged of their community. These children had a solid home to live in, food everyday, love provided freely, even specialized teachers to provide an education to them. Just those things alone made them the luckiest of their kind. And that hit me in the gut.

These were the times that I thought of my children. And honestly, the feelings weren’t good. I adore my children with all my soul, but they have no idea of hardship. They have no idea what goes on in the world. Yes, yes, they are too young for such knowledge to be imparted by me, but there are millions of young children living it. Here’s where my parenting changed. The dawning on me that my children are utterly lavished, living in the lap of luxury (comparatively), surround with so much food, so much toys, so much education, and yet it’s taken for granted by all. By almost all children regardless of age in this country. By most adults. The sense of entitlement has risen so high that it’s snuck into society as the norm and for me, that needs to be taken down a notch or fifty. A nice chunk of the problem is that we want to lavish our kids with stuff because we’ve grown up with the association that presents mean love. Early last year, hubby and I declared a family rule that we weren’t getting the children anything until it was their birthday or Christmas. If they wanted something, they could let us know and I would put it on a wish list. Come present time, we knew what to get. I’m comfortable with that arrangement. But there is still the gimme-gimme-gimme attitude bombarding us constantly. I want to change that for my children. I haven’t exactly figured out how to yet but I’m working on it.

Anyway, back to being fabulous without children! I got to eat in the best of restaurants in Cape Town. Even spent a night in a vineyard, experienced the most delicious food ever, and found myself again. It was nice to know I could still be me. I could still be sociable, fun, witty, without having to dart my eyes across the room looking for the little ones, checking that they haven’t destroyed whatever is available. I could still hold my own at a party and I could still have a blast.  About a year ago, someone asked me who I am and all I could come up with is “mother,” but now I’ve had this wonderful opportunity to step back from my life for 10 days. To live freely. To live well. To experience the beauty and the heartbreak that Cape Town offers. While I adored Cape Point, one of my favorite pictures of the whole trip is below. It sums up how I felt. I felt like I was on top of the world. All of Cape Town below, on top of Table Mountain, wind whirring, and a 360 degree view of pure beauty. Africa. I was actually looking at Africa. Albeit a tiny, miniscule part of Africa but it was Africa nonetheless.

Table mountain
On top of Table Mountain.

Now, all I need do is look at that picture, remember that feeling I had while standing there and take that deep breath. It was an intoxicating feeling, freedom at its best. My children were the farthest thing from my mind. Man, I could stare at that picture all day.

My brother, his husband and I.

By the second to last day, people around me were innocently asking or reminding me that I was leaving the next day. And I would cry. By the morning of my last day, I had banished all talk of the plane because each time brought tears to my eyes. I was threatening to not get on the plane. Even my new South African friend had offered me her spare bedroom!! But I knew I had to leave. I had to end the best week of my single, motherless life. Here’s where I have to thank, from the very depths of my soul, my brother and his husband for giving me this gift. And it truly was a gift in so many ways.

Final sunset in Cape Town
Final sunset in Cape Town

On my last night, we were invited to a friend’s house for a barbecue. We arrived to this gorgeous house in Camps Bay, overlooking the ocean, mountains on the side, pool gleaming, sun setting. A discussion began on parenting and my brother explained that he thought I “over-parented.” I had to think a lot about that because he was spot on. It’s not just me. More than likely, it’s you and everyone else you know too. Because we are so intent on our children being happy, our children being provided for, that we forget to give them the respect they deserve. One of the most important aspect of that is to let them learn the ability to do things themselves. Letting them spread their wings. I’m not talking about avoiding being a helicopter Mom. I was never one of those, but I can’t deny that at home, I’ve spent the past 6 years running back and forth at every request. My husband doesn’t over-parent. If my daughter asks for a cup of water to drink, he tells her to go get it herself. Because the plastic cups are next to the fridge, easily in reach, and she knows how to do it. But she’ll ask me to do it for her. Sure, there are times when kids just need that extra loving and coddling. But most of the time, we fail to let them learn to be self-sufficient. My little three-year old monster will get his own water, but the six-year-old still tries to be waited on hand and foot. It’s not a hardship to make them get their own water. The world won’t end for them, they know how to do it. I just need to say no. It won’t break their soul. ‘No’ won’t send them to therapy. It causes a few tantrums here and there but they’ll get the gist of it soon enough. My own worst trait is that I cave under a rainstorm of “pleeeeeeaaaassssseeee” a thousand times because I just want the talking to stop. But now, my answer is simply “did you not hear my answer the first time?” I then add in a consequence to repeating the question.

This trip wasn’t about them though. It was about me. And it made me realize how incredibly lucky I am, what a full, wonderful life I have. I may have cried for two days at the thought of returning home but that’s simply because I loved my temporary freedom and spending time with my family. God, how I loved every second of it. When I returned, the kids ran to me like never before, squeezing the life out of me, smothering me with kisses, reviving my soul in another way. They were so happy to have me home. It was an amazing feeling and for that, I am grateful. I am able to turn the microscope on my own life and realize how lucky I really am. I want to take with me the positivity of the South African people. An appreciation for what I have, what I can offer as a person and as a parent, who I am, and perhaps who I can be in the future.

My <3 forever and for always to Cape Town, and to the two wonderful men that made it happen.


Over-Parenting: Part 2

Robben IslandDuring my awesome trip, I took a boat to Robben Island to see Nelson Mandela’s prison cell. What was the most incredible thing to me was that the tour was conducted by a former political prisoner (1984-1989). I wish I had gotten his name. I never did. But he told us how he and four of his friends were kidnapped by security police on a barren road. How they were tortured, physically and mentally. How only four of them made it to Robben Island. The fifth was killed during the torturing process. To talk with this man, hear his story, ask him questions, was the most precious thing to me because what stood out the most was not anger. It wasn’t resentment. It was still joy. It was still hope. He told us how, even when imprisoned, the political prisoners knew that education was the key. Patience, faith, hope, non violent action. These were the tools those prisoners used to get the word out, to build their campaign, to get the world to listen until their voices were loud enough that all political prisoners were set free and apartheid was abolished. I can’t adequately describe the demeanour of this man. His energy was so positive. He was a beacon. Despite all that he had been through, he was still returning to that prison day in and day out, because he was continuing that education to the rest of the world. Robben Island2 I’ve always remembered that Nelson Mandela’s prisoner number was 46664 but I never knew why. Originally, it was 466/64 because he was the 466th arrival on Robben Island in 1964. His number then just became 46664. I met more native South Africans and the attitude always seemed to be the same. It was always one of hope, positivity. The current government is not one Mandiba would be proud of, but they still hope for more. For it to get better. Faced with so, so, so much, the people still focus on moving forward, gently, kindly, with education. As I sat talking to a new friend, I felt such peace talking with her and it made me realize how I myself view my own situations, including parenting. How our first-world problems are so utterly trivial that it borderlines disgust. That we, as a nation, stress so much importance on the most minute of things, letting it cause us so much aggravation. Even now that I am back home a couple of weeks, when I start to feel that familiar stress come on, I think back to South Africa, to a land where most of the people conquered the worst of obstacles, and even now, when poverty and crime are peaking, can still be positive. It’s a life lesson to be learned. That I needed to learn to change my parenting, among other things. But what I encountered with regards children specifically, I could never have imagined.

Over-parenting: Part 1.

MargheritaI was fortunate enough to be offered the trip of a lifetime by my wonderful brother and his husband for a 10-day break in South Africa to celebrate my birthday. This trip was just for me and the boys. No hubby or kids in sight. I had a very hard time being excited about the trip because I was so stressed out – I was leaving the day after Christmas so there was the Christmas mayhem to get through, would the kids be OK when I was gone? Would I pay dearly for my absence by my three-year-old mental patient once I got back? I told my hubby to drop me at departures drive-thru. I wasn’t going to go through any elongated good-byes. I cried. I looked at my children longingly. Smothered their faces with kisses. Kissed & hugged my hubby goodbye and watched them drive off. I swallowed the torrent of tears that threatened to flow. I checked in, breezed through security still wondering about my babies. Got to my gate with loads of time to spare and spotted a bar. I sat my arse down, ordered an insanely overpriced Margherita and suddenly, the world lifted off my shoulders. I forgot about the children. I forgot about my husband. I realized that for the first time in fourteen years, I didn’t have anyone else to think about or considerate but me. No children. No husband. Just ME! Suddenly, no one was there demanding my attention every 2 minutes. No one needed to hang off me. No one needed anything. It made me quite giddy.

LondonMy journey gave me a full day in London where I did the red bus tour and met up with some fabulous friends for a late lunch. I was noticing the freedom of movement. How easy it was to walk from A to B, how much less stressful it was to battle the crowds. By late afternoon, I made my way to Heathrow airport for the 12 hour flight to Cape Town, South Africa. I still fully wasn’t grasping what lay ahead of me though. I’d had a great day in London. Now onto another new place.

plane tripI talked with the marine biologist next to me about his kids and my kids, and how he wasn’t going to see them for a month. But I knew my time was limited and I felt a little twinge while talking about my children, wondering how they were doing. Daddy was taking care of them so I knew they would be just fine. And then I arrived. After almost two days of traveling, I arrived to a place that took my breath away. When I met my brother, the true excitement of what lay ahead hit me. Children? What children? Who has children?

What followed that week led to very interesting discussions and realizations about how I parent. What I do instinctively as a parent, and how parenting is viewed very, very differently elsewhere than in the United States. What I learned, frankly, is that it’s amazing any of us mothers in the US come out of it alive. More to come. . .